A year as a mother – The Re-birth.

I was not one of those little girls who dreamt about their wedding days and having babies…(there’s nothing wrong with the dream at all, it just wasn’t part of my imaginative spirit)…the closest I came to that was stealing onions and matchsticks from my mother’s pantry stock to try and cook up something in a make shift sufuria (read metal can) but basically that just illuminated my love for cooking.

So I grew and and being one of the elder of my cousins, I saw many of them being born as an “adult” and boy did I love being a big cousin and did I love babies!!!!! Lakini I still didn’t see myself having one any time soon even though as ladies, hate it we may or at least I do, we have a biological clock…fact…I still had an apprehension about having my own. I didn’t feel ready. I felt I still had growing up to do, dreams to chase and a whole lot of money to earn before I could even conceive the idea of conceiving!

Fast forward to 2021…I’ll leave the nitty gritty out of this 😜😆🙊…I discover there’s a little human growing…I actually knew even before the tests and the doctor confirmed it and instead of freaking out I was covered, enveloped, filled inside out with a sense of calm and peace that to date I don’t understand. My son is the perfect gift, piece I never knew I couldn’t live without. A true miracle… a blessing… a divine manifestation.

I’m reborn…I was reborn the day he was conceived and again when he was born.

I never imagined myself a mom.A big sister, cousin, aunty, all the above yes but mama…nope. Now I know that even when you don’t see it, dream it or believe it it’s there and once it emerges it’s undeniable and it will change your life. Whatever IT is!

I have grown since last year in too many ways, I feel like I can do almost anything as long as I set my mind to it.My only battle is, the energy to remain consistent, which I’m battling because yoh..motherhood is a full time job + hustling..it aint easy! (A moment of truth because the truth is all I wish to share) BUT…STILL…I wouldn’t change A DAMN THING!

So I’ve learnt…

1.) It’s kinda hard to plan life…you can try, oh you can try… but curveballs and waterslides are bound to happen! You can choose to duck and scream OR hang on and enjoy the ride!! I advise for the latter 😉

2.) I LOVE surprises!!! Still…even the ones I can’t foresee and I’m not ready for 😂…or so I think 😜

3.) Change is inevitable but it doesn’t have to be terrible. Change can be your dreams being manifested into reality. So in as much as change is scary, uncertain and sometimes messy, it brings about growth and that growth may be your next beautiful adventure…your next step into fulfilling your life’s purpose…your next step into living your dream and achieving your full potential.

So I’m giving birth…again lol to a new adventure. Let me explore my love for putting words down in looooooonnnnggg paragraphs (how people have described my captions 😂) ….and I hope and pray you join me and enjoy the ride ✨🦋